What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don’t bother me.
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out,
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me,
there are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok,
but that’s not what gets me..

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go, 
but I’m doin’ It 
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone 
Still Harder, 
getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret 
But I know if I could do it over 
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart 
that I left unspoken 

What hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
And not seeing that loving you 
is what I was trying to do

- Rascal Flatts

Burning Herself

She was crazy (she was beautiful),
I guess she had to be.
I was angry (you were blind),
because I could not see.
I saw only what her cigarettes had done to her skin.
I should have known the outside world would reveal what was within.

She was burning herself, and her hair was filled with ashes.
She was burning herself, and her life becomes a flame.
She was burning herself, and the flame became her passion.
She was burning herself, and her passion, her passion was her pain.

She was trusting (you could have saved her too),
all hope had passed for her.
I was lusting (and she gave to you),
that’s all I asked for her.
The marks upon her body and the marks upon her mind.
I could have erased them if I’d only taken the time.

I never saw her do it, I only saw the scars.
I never could imagine what would make her go that far.
I wondered, was she driven by desperate need to feel,
to find out she was living, to discover life was real.
Or was it that the pain slicing through her like a knife
was easier to take than the emptiness of life?
I don’t know...

- Harry Chapin

I Wish That I Could Tell You

How do you tell someone you're letting go? I wish that I could tell you.
But you're asking me things that I don't know
The words that I would say, sound as empty as the way you feel inside
While the silence in between, tells me everything that you deny

I don't know how you leave it all behind, I wish that I could tell you
Is it true a heart heals itself with time?
How do you choose?
Do you hurt 'em with the truth or with a lie?
Where do you go to find the courage, you know I could never find?
I don't know how to help you, I wish that I could tell you
how to tell me goodbye.

Where do you turn, where do you go,
when you've finally reached the end of the road?
How do you say it, I just don't know...
When it comes to leaving you're on your own

How do you tell someone you're letting go?
I wish that I could tell you.

- Reba McEntire



You're not supposed to understand. But it hurt me.

Still does.

Laglöst Land

Som en varg i ett laglöst land när vintern närmar sig,
springer jag med fara för mitt liv
Jag har inte lust att dö för en längtan som gör ont,
men det är för sent att stanna när jag hunnit ända hit

Så jag följer ändå den väg jag valt och lämnar inga spår
för blodet där jag gått är inte mitt
Jag har inte fått en chans,
du är rädd för det jag är
och det är för sent att leva om det liv vi levt

Himlen ropar på oss inatt; vad vill du med ditt liv?
Stjäl du mitt, du får göra som du vill
Jag är hungrig och beredd
och om himlen blir din grav är den öppen för att sluta sig om dig,
om du vill.

Himlen ropar på oss inatt och jorden kräver sitt,
när de eldar vi har tänt har brunnit ut.
Det var du och jag som brann innan kärleken försvann
och det är för sent att leva om det liv vi levt

Har du inte levt mitt liv, vet du ingenting
Se mig bara där jag står och önska inget mer.
Har du inte levt mitt liv, så vet du ingenting
Ta min längtan här och nu men önska inget mer


- Nordman

Tsubomi

この先に　続く道には
花が咲いているだろうか?

曲がり道　多くて迷うこと…
こんなこと　あるんだろうか

少し震えてる心と体
すごく不安だ

泣かないんだ　出来るんだ
怖くなんか無いんだ
何度も言いきかせたんだ
泣かないんだ　出来るんだ
怖くなんか無いんだ
強気でいないと
崩れてしまう気がして

降り出した雨が　心に
花　咲かせてくれるから

目の前が見えなくなっても
この道を歩くから

誰も独りじゃない
支えあって　生きているんだ

負けない　くじけない
出来ないことは何もない
何度も言いきかせたんだ
負けない　くじけない
出来ないことは何もない
強気でいないと
崩れてしまう気がして

不安なんて　消えてしまえば…
いい

泣かないんだ　出来るんだ
怖くなんか無いんだ
何度も言いきかせたんだ
負けない　くじけない
出来ないことは何もない
全てを受け止められると
そう誓うから

- Maria

Holding Out For A Hero

Where have all the good men gone, and where are all the gods?
Where’s the street-wise Hercules to fight the rising odds?
Isn’t there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and I turn and I dream of what I need

Somewhere after midnight in my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my react, there’s someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
it’s gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I could swear there is someone somewhere watching me

Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach like a fire in my blood

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'till the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong and he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'till the morning light
He's gotta be sure and it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life


I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'till the end of the night

- Bonnie Tyler

Ich Bin Nich' Ich

Meine Augen schaun mich müde an und finden kleinen trost
ich kann mich nich' mehr mit anseh'n, bin ich los
alles was hier mal war kann ich nich' mehr in mir finden
alles weg - wie im Wahn
seh ich mich immer mehr verschwinden

Ich weiß nich' mehr wer ich bin
und was noch wichtig ist
das ist alles irgendwo , wo du bist
ohne dich durch die Nacht
ich kann nichts mehr in mir finden
was hast du mit mir gemacht
ich seh mich immer mehr verschwinden

Ich bin nich' ich wenn du nich' bei mir bist
bin ich alleine
und das was jetzt noch von mir übrig ist
will ich nich' sein
Draußen hängt der Himmel schief
und an der Wand dein Abschiedsbrief
Ich bin nich´ ich wenn du nich' bei mir bist
bin ich alleine

Ich lös mich langsam auf - halt mich nich' mehr aus
ich krieg dich einfach nich' mehr aus mir raus
egal wo du bist, komm und rette mich
ich bin nich' ich wenn du nicht bei mir bist
bin ich allein und das was jetzt noch von mir übrig ist
will ich nich' sein
Draußen hängt der Himmel schief
und an der Wand dein Abschiedsbrief
ich bin nich' ich wenn du nich' bei mir bist
will ich nich' mehr sein

- Tokio Hotel 

On the Edge

It's getting light outside, she is still there but no one cares
Do you want to see yourself flying through the night?
This gift is what you need, you're gonna be alright
Eyes close and fall

Her first time on the edge
The scars will stay forever

It's getting light outside, she cannot sleep 'cause time stands still
Someone's hand is touching her, she has no will
Each time when it hurts, she just feels so alone
She doesn't care at all, her memories are long gone
Eyes close and fall

And closer to the edge
The scars will stay forever

She shuts the door
She longs for more and more
And more
Just once more

Everyone is watching
Her arms are so sore
but she doesn't care anymore

And falling from the edge
The scars will stay forever
Side to side with death
This last time even better
Darkness and light are blinding her sight
She's not coming back

The sky is casting over
her last wish stays unsaid

- Tokio Hotel

I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

Well, if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look

You said you'd read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay
(Trust me)

I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay

- My Chemical Romance

Razorblades and Knives

I feel the cold blade on my skin
Then I feel it cutting in
I see the red stuff seeping out
The stuff I couldn’t live without

Like a sword, making wounds
They bleed, they weep, they keep me doomed
I’m trying not, to give up
I keep on going, cut cut cut

Cutting, tearing, piercing me
I can’t hear, and I can’t see
Tears are rolling down my face
My crimson blood, begins to waste

I see the blade go deeper yet
Quite how deep, my brain forgets
I push it further, bit by bit
It hurts like hell, but I love it

How much blood, I can’t say
I hope I bleed some more today
I cut it more, I cut it deep
This sure beats the fatal leap

Finally the blade breaks through
The grinding of my white bones too
Now the time has finally come
Life and death, death has won

Razorblades and knives (hey)
Razorblades and knives (hey)
Razorblades and all sharp things
Cutting into my tough skin

You come in and see me there
You see the cuts, they’re all so bare
You see the blood, the blade, the wounds
Bound with tears you flee the room

- Brooke MacKenzie

Summer Wine

I walked in town on silver spurs that jingled to
a song that I had only sang to just a few
She saw my silver spurs and said let's pass some time
and I will give to you... summer wine

Strawberries, cherries and an angel's kiss in spring
My summer wine is really made from all these things
Take off your silver spurs and help me pass the time
And I will give to you... summer wine

My eyes grew heavy and my lips they could not speak
I tried to get up but I couldn't find my feet
She reassured me with the unfamiliar line
and then she gave to me...more summer wine

Strawberries, cherries and an angel's kiss in spring
My summer wine is really made from all these things
Take off your silver spurs and help me pass the time
And I will give to you...summer wine

When I woke up, the sun was shining in my eyes
My silver spurs were gone, my head felt twice its size
She took my silver spurs, a dollar and a dime
And left me craving for...more summer wine

Strawberries, cherries and an angel's kiss in spring
My summer wine is really made from all these things
Take off your silver spurs and help me pass the time
And I will give to you my summer wine
Oh...oh...summer wine 

- Ville Valo feat. Natalie Avalon

Sweet

Sunshine takes me to a place where I'm
Living free
Something in your eyes is telling me
This is where I want to be
But I never thought it would be so

Sweet
Sweet
Sweet 
Don't wake me please 

It's funny how it just gets sweeter and sweeter
Day by day
It's sweet how you just get funnier to me in every way
But I never thought t would be so

Sweet
Sweet
Sweet 
Don't wake me please 

It's so rare to find someone who brings in the sunshine the way you do it so

Sweet
Sweet
Sweet 
Don't wake me please 

Sweet
Sweet
Sweet 
I'm covered in gold

- Lamb

Kiss Me

Kiss me, out of the bearded barley
lightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
you wear those shoes and... I will wear that dress 

Kiss me down by the broken tree house 
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We’ll take the trail marked on your father’s map

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies
Dance, silver moon’s sparkling, so kiss me

So kiss me.

- Sixpence None the Richer

Tomorrow

Is it any wonder why I'm scared?
If I was a little younger would I care?
I'm feeling like the walls are growing stronger
I don't know if this cage can hold me any longer

I never thought they'd want me to go even faster
Never thought I took my foot off the gas
Everbody loves to be in on the pressure
But I know they're all waiting for the crash

You never dreamed you'd have to live your life so guarded
Cause they'll find a way to make you feel discarded
Things have changed, you've become a complication
Can't make it through another day's humiliation

Is it any wonder why the answer keeps me petrified?
Is it any wonder why I'm scared?

I'm not afraid of tomorrow
I'm only scared of myself (scared of myself)
Feels like my insides are on fire
and I'm looking through the eyes of someone else
(Is it any wonder why I'm scared?)
I'm not afraid of tomorrow
(If I was a little younger would I care?)
I'm only scared of myself
(I'm feeling like the walls are growing stronger)
Feels like my insides are on fire
And I'm looking through the eyes of someone else
Is it any wonder why I'm scared?

- SR-71

I Will Remember you

Remember the good times that we had? 
I let them slip away from us when things got bad. 
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun, 
wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one 

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep 
Standing on the edge of something much too deep 
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word 
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard 

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose 
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose 
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night 
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light 

And I will remember you 
Will you remember me? 
Don’t let your life pass you by 
Weep not for the memories 

- Sarah McLachlan

Sleeping Stars

Oh, sleeping stars, why are you so sad tonight? 
Oh, sleeping stars, will you shine for me tonight? 

Can you see them float in the night sky ?
Can you hear those echoes of their sweet cries, creating a tune? 
Can you see them shine so bright? 
Can you feel their loneliness through their cold light, touching you? 

My eyes feel so heavy when the stars are calling me... 
- Join with us eternally - 
I'm falling in deep trance and my powers are weakening 
I'm falling in a world between dreams and reality 

I am now alone in the silent light 
and there's nothing but darkness around me 
Deeper into unknown the strange light is guiding me 
Wake me until it's too late 

Suddenly I feel a warmth go through my body 
But I feel that a part of me has died, I sense the change in me 
I must have been away so long 
so please stay with me for a while.

- Wintersun

You've Got A Friend In Me

You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead,
and you're miles and miles from your nice warm bed
You just remember what your old pal said;
Girl, you've got a friend in me

If you've got troubles, and I got 'em too
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you
If we stick together we can see it through,
Cause you got a friend in me

Some other folks might be a little bit smarter than I am
Bigger and stronger too
Baby, but none of them will ever love you the way I do,
It's me and you, girl

And as the years go by,
Our friendship will never die
You gonna see it's our destiny
You got a friend in me

Yeah, you got a friend in me

- Randy Newman


For My Butterfly. <3

How Can I Not Love You

Cannot touch,
cannot hold
cannot be together
Cannot love,
cannot kiss
cannot have each other
Must be strong
and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

Cannot dream
cannot share
sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel
must pretend it's over
must be brave and we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along
how can I not love you

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one walks away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?
How can I not love you... when you are gone?

- This song is from a movie a saw when I was young,
but I don't remember more from it than this song.

Invisible

People see right through me, treat me like I'm air
Talking shit about me as, as if I am not there
No one seems to listen, no one seems to care
All this makes me wonder
Am I really here, am I really here..?

Invisible - Is there no remedy or cure
Invisible - I get repeatedly ignored
Invisible - I just can't take it anymore
Someone tell me what the hell is going on

Can it be I'm dreaming, can it be I'm dead?
Would I've missed if someone came and shot me through the head
What the hell has happened, what have I done wrong?
Please somebody tell me
What is going on - What is going on

Invisible - I scream but no one seems to hear
Invisible - I fear the ending must be near
Invisible - I leave no footprints in the snow
Will it be like this forever - What am I supposed to do

Invisible - Is there no remedy or cure
Invisible - I just can't take it anymore
Invisible - I leave no footprints in the snow
Will it be like this forever - What am I supposed to do
Invisible - Is there no remedy or cure
Invisible - I just can't take it anymore
Invisible - I miss them all I once held dear
But I haven't seen them shed a single tear

- Dream Evil

Monsoon

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane
I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to've come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again
A halfmoon fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name and don't know how
why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

I'm fighting all this power coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you,
I've been running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

- Tokio Hotel

Winter In My Heart

Need a summer but the summer's come and gone
I need a summer but it's winter in my heart

It's all the same
the fucked up game you play with me
I need to hold you
but you're never coming back

I can't get, any lower
I can't find all the pieces of my broken life

but I try...

... I still try

- VAST

I Just Died In Your Arms Tonight

I keep looking for something I can't get ,
broken hearts lie all around me
and I don't see an easy way to get out of this
My diary it sits on the bedside table
The curtains are closed, the cats in the cradle
Who would've thought that a girl like me could come to this?

Is there any just cause for feeling like this?
On the surface I'm a name on a list
I try to be discreet, but then blow it again
I've lost and found, it's my final mistake
He's loving by proxy, no give and all take
'cuz I've been thrilled to fantasy one too many times

It was a long hot night
He made it easy, he made it feel right
But now it's over the moment has gone
I followed my hands not my head,
I know I was wrong

I just died in your arms tonight
it must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight

I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should've walked away,

I should've walked away 

- Cutting Crew
 

Wait

I hold it, I fold it,
I throw it on the floor
I wrote it , maybe I'm afraid 
that you'll be bored

It's very real and true and sad 
and hopeful just like me
It's one of those things I'll never tell
I'll carve it in a tree

I follow you,  I watch you
I thank God you're in my class
I picture us in the school bus 
and we're holding each others hands

I need a plan for you to fall 
in love with me and then
I'll make you marry me, I'll Wait

I never wear my glasses when 
I know that you can see me
You act as if I'm not around 
but deep down you must need me

I draw you, every single 
feature in my head
I try to do my homework 
but I dream of you instead

I need a plan for you to fall 
in love with me and then
I'll make you marry me, I'll Wait

I'll make you marry me
I'll make you marry me
I'll make you marry marry me

I'll wait
(I'll wait, I'll wait, I'll wait)

- K's Choice

Letters To you

Can't you see that I wanna be
there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one

I'm writing again, these letters to you
aren't much I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to
So far away?

No more looking,
I've found home

I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so

I've gone away

- Finch

Lonely

It's only been a day but it's like I can't go on.
I just wanna say, I never meant to do you wrong

And I remember you told me, baby,
something's gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you, baby,
I don't think I could live

The stuff is in my house, so many things I can't ignore
coats still on the coach, your photos on my freezer door

Now I'm so sick of being lonely,
this is killing me so slowly
Don't pretend that you don't know me,
'cause thats the worst thing you could do
Now I'm singing such a sad song,
these things never seem to last long
Something that I never planned on...
Help me, baby, I'm so sick of being lonely.

And I remember you told me, baby,
something's gotta give
If I cant be the one to hold you, baby,
I don't think I could live

I am so lonely...

- Mcfly